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Wednesday, March 30, 2011

The New Me

Everyday with me
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Falkland Island & Me

Salam n praise upon the only dear god on earth..

My come back after one year.. I'm thinking why I'm doing this? why I did not write anything here. I'll list down all my reasons here:

Consistency problem as always

When the time comes, I'll write, and here I am.

Lack of ink to write.

Nice place to write. Look at where am I while writing this. Such a beautiful place indeed. I’d never even dream of coming to this kind of place.

Enough with all the blabbering, My eyes got caught on a hill having words written with stones. There were 60 metres in height words “written with” painted white stones. (Beagle, Barracouta, Protector and Endurance), referred to four ships of the British Navy, and stones were laid by crews of these ships that sailed around the coast of the Falklands. The first stones were placed at the beginning of the twentieth century. Nonetheless, the islands have been a matter of controversy, as they have been claimed by the French, Spaniards, British and Argentines at various points. More at Falkland History

After a year.. here I am.. neither brag about anything, nor complaining. As my previous post. What will be, will be.. It's on god's will, and it's actually also in our hand. Whether to make/let the thing (anything) happen to us or not.

As I'm here now, standing on my ground (sitting on a bench actually), letting some people get in my life, leave something and go, or I myself getting in someone's life and leave them. Second crew change of mine this time really gives me some thrill. I’m sitting on a bench, just alongside the waterfront, looking at the water current flow. It’s actually quite windy today and chill but still sunny. Even though it’s not as bright as Malaysia’s sunshine, it’s still there with me, wherever and whenever I go. I was watching the Island with such beautiful god’s creation. I wonder how everything has been put in place like this.

My hand is freezing. But I’ve experienced much colder than this before. So I’ve decided that I’ll stay seated here, continue what I was doing. Letting my hand freeze. Thinking of pretty much everything. Hoping that the breeze I feel won’t froze me in second, or even worse, raining! i wish my laptop will have this water proof solution.

I'm thinking about what should I feel right now.. What should I do and how should I capture the moment. I ought to feeling calm and serene but my head keep pushing me into thinking into a far less-better place. Which i call home. What I meant to say, my home surely not having this kind of weather/scenery but still home is where a person's heart is. At least my heart is right now. :) I wish I have my family around with me at the moment then I'm gonna ask anything no more.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Que Sera My Darling

When I was just a little girl
I asked my mother, what will I be
Will I be pretty, will I be rich
Here's what she said to me.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

Now I have children of my own
They ask their mother, what will I be
Will I be handsome, will I be rich
I tell them tenderly.

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

This song, is so meaningful to me. I learn it from my primary school time. It sure will bring us memory.. I wonder is my teacher at that time still live until now. I hope he'll live that one day I'll meet him. I miss my childhood time when I heard of this song.. For me it was a bittersweet memory. I just know how to live by myself at that particular time.. I take my own path. I choose my own choice. I'm responsible on everything I do. I'm sure that's what makes me as me, now. One, never know what will happen to ourselves in future. What will be is what is suppose to be. For me, it's like what we Malay people always say that "we only plan for it, Our dear god who will decide it(destiny)" and I guess that's what this song is all about.

I'm depending on destiny in my life, at all time. I need to work harder if I plan to earn higher. I point out this idea because recently I always got upset with many things. I can't stand stress. I realize that stress is always my best-friend these days. I need to unfastened the bond that I have created between stress and me.

I think I'll just get back to work and wait for my big day to start new life, new air, new work of course. So long. I hope I'll write more often.

An idiom for today's post would be;-

Let Bygones Be Bygones: To forget about disagreement or argument!!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

My Soul is Blue~

To the left I'm confused,

To the forest I'm lost,

To the east I'm empty,

I got bored and depressed,

Like the time that just left me behind,

Through the surface of earth core that never have been explored,

My colour is missing,

My soul is Blue,

Waiting for my love is like the blind seeing heaven.

Just like a lamp sounds black,

That will wait for me all the time,

There comes Night,

Leaving the sun behind,

Forced with the sound of rain drops,

I just feel like want to chase it,

The mountains are so big that I cannot hug,

That feeling evaluates how much I miss you,

Now I just have to stay await,

Or I'll just lose into the wide open sea,

~ you don't have any idea how much I'm so worried over having to "leave you behind" this coming month ~

"I want to make no bones about it:" which means to state a fact in a way that allows no doubt. To have no objection to -

That I really love you~

Monday, January 4, 2010

Here Comes 2010, There Goes 2009

Here Comes 'd full of fun' 2010, There Goes 'better than dull' 2009

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Happy New Year

Happy New Year, everyone on planet earth! We've made it to 2010.

I wonder if there's anything awaits me this year. I wish I could have a peek into the future, which I know is impossible. I guess, we just don't have that kind of Alice Cullen power. Predicting future is just a fiction. It's okay though. Live on. Make a mistake. Be responsible to it. Then our life would be Just Perfect as the way it is.

2010 Whole Year Planner would be:

January - Complete all pending tasks, preparing for a new position abroad!

February - Arriving in Houston, Texas, on-job-training

March - Still be on Training, get depressed I guess :P

April - Final month on Training, getting more depressed and really excited to go back Hometown

May - Should be finishing my training and going back hometown. 'Not going back for good, I'm sure'

June - Enjoy my life!

July- I presume I'll be in Scotland + Houston for another training.

August to December - My life as an offshore person.. 5 weeks offshore, 5 weeks home (I hope they'll not withdraw my leisure time)

My Wish-List..

Acquire myself Swimming Skill (more like skill polishing) and Cooking Skill,

Drop weight to 58-60 kg,

Get an iPhone,

I guess that's all for now.. And

"Don't count your chicken until they hatch" which means don't rely on it until you sure of it.

Yeah.. I'll start to put an idiom per post afterwards.. cool~

Happy New Year~

First is the start of everything.

Assalamualaikum.. Peace be upon all of you~

This first post should be the start of everything.. I just deleted my other Blog and will be using this Blog from now on. My plan on this Blog is simply sharing my thoughts where I can express all my feelings and anything to anyone who reach on this page. =) Lacking of consistency in Blogging is caused by my numbness. Writing a Blog and having one is normally for those who should have many ideas in their mind and they wanted to express it. Of course there's also more to it.

As my 2010 new years' wish, I wanted to be more consistent in writing this Blog. I'll try to write frequently. Not for others but myself. I have known to myself for so long that I had always wanted to be a writer one day, and the first step I thought I should start is by writing a Blog like this to practice my writing skills and just write, write and write. It wasn't easy I know indeed, just look at my writing quality here, right now. But I'm sure I know I will get it 'there' somehow.

Idea of writing came when I was thinking about my future self. "What should I do when I got an offer as a full-time housewife, raising kids at home? Will I just let the day goes by or will I do any other things than a full-time housewife will be doing at all (Not that I really know what will they be doing at this point)". While thinking about the answer to that, first thing came to my mind of course it will be to improve my writing skills. I want to write a book. I want to use this medium to spread happiness, awareness and consciousness. The are billions of things I could touch from, it could be informative to help others, It could also be inspiring too, or even something to reflect upon, but I know and I hope for sure it will benefited others and what is more to our life than to be a person who gives benefit to others.